Hard

I don't often write when I'm upset since at the end of the day being upset subsides pretty fast but what I write stays here. However, today I'm so tired and sad that I thought I'd share it. Not to worry, though, we are all fine. Husband is at work, baby is sleeping and finally without coughing madly and yesterday we signed the papers and our appartment is now sold.

But, Husband's marvellous father found a house in the internet that had huge promise and we had plans to go see it tomorrow. However, late last night it was already sold. Proof enough that the price was right and I'm very angry with myself for not realizing that we should have acted immediately.

This is getting to me. Getting excited about houses and then something happens and it's not it after all. I know I'm too emotional when it comes to house hunting but we are trying to find a home and that is pretty huge, isn't it? Finding an area which is good for Lotta and a house that is well built, feels like a home and is big enough for us and our stuff and preferably even with a lovely lot for Lotta to play in. This is so hard! And I'm starting to feel stupid for not even knowing for sure what I want. I'd like a new house as much as an old house.