Something is weird

Ok, I wasn't going to write about this, not at least until I'd been to the cystoscopy in early March. However, I just spoke with my somewhat puzzled doctor and I guess I just need to write about some of what's up already now. If you don't necessarily want to know details about my health and particularily embarassing aspects of it you might want to skip this entry. I won't mind :).

Initially I was very (VERY) humiliated to have to go to the doctor about peeing problems. Why I was humiliated is beyond me, though. After all I'm a mom to an almost two-year-old whom I praise daily about her potty achievements but I was, and am.

The problem was and is that I pee a lot and I'm not kidding. I have to go almost every hour and most nights at least once, usually twice and nowadays even more often than that - my record is five times from last week (and although I wish I were, I'm not pregnant).

Now, I'm used to being the one who always needs to go to the bathroom first since I've been like this almost my entire adult life. The thing is that it's gotten much worse during the past half a year. The first assumption was that I have overactive bladder syndrom - which I found pretty humiliating, too - and I got medication for it. Right in the beginning it helped but that only lasted for a couple of weeks. But, oh boy, how incredibly wonderful to sleep through the entire night! I only do perhaps five times a year.

Now I'm off the medication for a little while because it actually started to cause more problems than anything else and I have started to wonder weather it helps at all. It might quite simply be that I don't have OBS but that isn't sure at this point.

However, the question that got my doctor puzzled is where all of the pee is coming from because the thing is that I don't drink fluids particularily much (I used to before little girl but not these days anymore). In fact I think I drink fairly little. And I still manage to produce a lot of pee - its been measured, don't ask how. I don't have an infection, I don't have sugar in my pee and I don't have protein in it either (which would mean my kidneys are malfunctioning).

The question then is, what's up? His words were "it seems you're slowly drying up". He didn't elaborate more than to say that there might be a problem in my blood. Which in all honesty didn't make it more clear. I was pushing a stroller uphill so I was somewhat distracted, too. But that's not really what you'd like to hear. He's a good guy don't get me wrong. I really like him. He has a rare quality (this is just my experience, though!) in a doctor in that he seems genuinely empathetic. He's taken me seriously from the get go and is doing his best. It's just a bit scary when your doctor doesn't know quite what to do next.

I do, however, go for more tests Friday. The thing is, that Husband leaves to perform his "comeback military duty" tomorrow evening. I don't know the proper term but he returns to the military for a week for a lack of a better word a "refresh course". He is going to the woods and what not and all of this in Hamina! Hours and hours away from home and since they're in the woods guess how long the moblie is going to function.

We are going to miss him terribly and now I do so wish I could talk to him on Monday when I hopefully get more results. This is the first time ever that we'be been apart for more than four days and those times we've had the phones functioning fine. This time there is also a little girl who will miss daddy very much.

Anyway. I don't know what else to say. I'm scared. All of the test results so far have been good news and a lot speaks for a solvable problem once the culprit is found. But is hasn't been yet and that's the scary part.