My little girl isn't angry that she has to go to kindergarten she is quite simply sad. Yesterday was really awful although I had know to expect mornings like that. Little girl started crying when I changed her diaper before we left and kept on crying until we got to the car. It is only a minute's drive to her kindergarten and once we were parked she was crying even harder. It really is the most awful thing to have to force your child's hands to loosen their grip, hand your child to her kindergarten teacher and leave her there crying her head off. So, I went to the car and cried mine off, too. Well, not really but I did have a cry, too, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only mom to have done that this fall.
I called her kindergarten at 10 (I couldn't help myself) and to my relief found out that everything had in fact gone really well. She had sat in her teacher's lap and stopped crying almost immediately after I left. Little girl wasn't really participating in the playing by then but rather just observing. On the other hand, she does that on occasion in any case. And when I went to pick her up a little after 3 p.m. she was happily playing with the other kids and just said "Hi, mom". We had a lovely time all evening, too. We went to the Turku city library which we all really like. Little girl is just very tired and slept in the car on the way there.
Little girl is finding it very hard to take her nap in kindergarten which is of course no surprise either. It seems this is for her the really difficult thing, though. In actual fact she has slept there every day this week but the thing is that she needs about two hours of sleep and has only managed to sleep an hour or so. From my perspective it is much better than I expected but I think she herself doesn't realize she has in fact really slept and that bothers her.
I'm not quite sure why, though. It could be she thinks she should and that she is failing when she doesn't, but I am absolutely sure all of us adults have done our best to not make her think like that. We all keep saying she is doing really well but she can be really, really hard on herself (Husband would say she takes after me and I that she takes after him). It really is our child rearing challenge to do everything we can to help her be more merciful towards herself and, come to think of it, us towards ourselves, too.
Little girl is finding it very hard to take her nap in kindergarten which is of course no surprise either. It seems this is for her the really difficult thing, though. In actual fact she has slept there every day this week but the thing is that she needs about two hours of sleep and has only managed to sleep an hour or so. From my perspective it is much better than I expected but I think she herself doesn't realize she has in fact really slept and that bothers her.
I'm not quite sure why, though. It could be she thinks she should and that she is failing when she doesn't, but I am absolutely sure all of us adults have done our best to not make her think like that. We all keep saying she is doing really well but she can be really, really hard on herself (Husband would say she takes after me and I that she takes after him). It really is our child rearing challenge to do everything we can to help her be more merciful towards herself and, come to think of it, us towards ourselves, too.
Today we had a fun morning together but when it was time to go for her diaper change she started crying and said she'll stay at home with daddy, who had been to work for four hours by then, but that of course was not the point. Things did go a bit better than yesterday - possibly because I am less emotional now that I know it is just the separation moment that is the hard part.
I managed to get a smile from little girl (by spraying hair spray - involuntarily - to my ear) and she was really very brave throughout. The thing is, though, that in a way it is even more heart breaking to watch her be so brave. I am extremely proud of my little girl for being so brave but I do wish she didn't have to go through such grief so early on in her life. She will get through it, I know, and I will, too, but for the time being we are still in the process and I am very sad for her.
I managed to get a smile from little girl (by spraying hair spray - involuntarily - to my ear) and she was really very brave throughout. The thing is, though, that in a way it is even more heart breaking to watch her be so brave. I am extremely proud of my little girl for being so brave but I do wish she didn't have to go through such grief so early on in her life. She will get through it, I know, and I will, too, but for the time being we are still in the process and I am very sad for her.
On a positive note, though, I am starting to like the teachers really much. I trust them throroughly and I see that my child is learning new things and really having a good time, too. There's a lovely little brown-eyed boy whom little girl seems to like to play with, too. Overall I have started to trust this really is the best place for little girl and I realize that this process would have been hard regardless of where she went to daycare. It is good to know she is well taken care of and that her teachers are very invested in making sure each child gets good care and the we parents get all the information we need.
Little girl was crying when I handed her to sit in her teacher's lap but she went there easier than yesterday and once I was out of the room (10 seconds max) she had stopped crying and they were doing a puzzle together with two other children. Little girl loves puzzles :). Also, she had been waiting to get to play in the teddy bear group's own room (that is her group) and today they were finally there.
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